Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. That time will pass anyway.
There's only so much you can do with a life.
I feel it all the time. The desire to examine all the many different paths my life can take. The pressure - and the need - to explore every option. I want to master the violin. I want to learn Spanish. I want a successful food blog, a well-trained dog, a hot body, a clean house. I want money. Retirement money and play money and rainy day money. I want to travel the world. I want to do yoga and grow a garden and join a soccer team and join a tennis team and join a book club.
I want to meditate. To learn to breathe.
I want to decorate for Halloween, then pull my Halloween decorations down and decorate for Christmas. Every year. I want to do this every year.
I have a job. Does this deserve mention? I'd like to keep it.
But really, there's only so much you can do with a life. I feel this too, all the time. That hand flipping the cards, showing me the face of every possibility, a split-second glance before it's gone. That hand becomes a mouth that laughs at me. The mouth becomes a voice, and that voice says, choose.
But how can I choose what path my life should take? How can anyone?
I can't seem to shake this sense that I'm wasting time. That I should be doing more, doing it faster, doing it better. I'm impatient. I want too much. My life is full, I know that it is, but I don't feel it. And I hate that.
This Life Undone is a journal devoted to changing that mindset. I started this blog to slow myself down. It's a place to record my life, somewhere I can watch time passing and actually feel it. I think I need that. I think we all do. None of us wants to blink out of this world too quickly. I want to learn how to reflect. I want to remind myself that I'm happy now, that I have enough, that the things I want will come in time, or they won't, but either way, it'll be alright.
So here it is, all of me in one place. The food that inspires me, my thoughts and adventures, some happy memories and some raw ones. My aim is to live life more slowly, and I hope what you find here inspires you to do the same.